"How can i not love him?"
That's the question I've been asking myself for almost everyday. yes, we're just kids having a relationship, no one knows where we're gonna be years from now. However, this is 2014. i mean look, we don't know when is the end of the world and there's still a lot more to catch up in life before it happens. Especially to be prepared for the hereafter which is why faith and religion is a main part of everyone's life now.
On the other hand looking at what we want to achieve in the world, for example like house, car, marriage and children. Every girl dream for a nicer and loveliest future ever. Same goes to me. I don't want a wealthy life but consider average living would be more than enough for me. I'll have my own car, my own house, really nice job and blablabla. By my own I mean yes on my own and not my future husband or anyone else's.
Having a lover would be, let say a must for every human being on earth nowadays. If we're lucky then we'll find someone now and if we're not we'll get them later (when the time comes). As for my self, I can literally say i found my soul-mate or should i say boyfriend more than a year ago. I wont describe him as he is because everybody's lover is good for them right?
Back to the question then; how can i not love him? I mean everybody do love their lover but hey, some people don't. Yes of course he did hurt me sometimes, do mistakes and all shit but i did it too cause we're human we're not perfect at all. we do shit, repeat shits. That's the nature of the world. But every little thing he did that make me so proud and thankful to have him, i mean god where on earth do you know to do that?
Situation 1: He was out of town travelling with his family for days and come back late at 1 a.m. in the morning but then he text-ed me asking for me to wait for him cause he wanted to see me before i go to bed and want to give me those chocolates that he bought. Okay maybe it doesn't sounds that cool or romantic but he came all the way to me just to gave me chocolates and put me to bed. He's tired i can see that through his face but he waited for me to fall asleep and then he went back home. He miss me and waiting the day after is just too long. How can i not love him?
Situation 2: I went to his place where he hangout with all his friends and they don't know me so yeah it's kinda awkward for me but not for him. He sit there with me, never leave my side and never let me felt like i'm alone. His friends were looking at me with their weird faces like "why is she here? who the hell is that girl? she ain't even pretty yapadiyapdiya.." but he'll be like "oh this is my girl and she's gonna be hangout with us too today" and then his friends started to be friend with me and now we're cool and i can say most of his friends knows me. Literally but yes. I'm not proud and not ashamed either. How can i not love him?
There are other situations then it wouldn't be enough to post everything here and those wasn't to show off or brag or show shit. It's just to make an example for a guy who would do anything for you just to see you, your smile, your face, proud to have you and show you to the world (his world) who you are in his life makes him a worth it guy to fall for. Other than that he met my mom and my brother know about him.
There's one time i was hospitalized last year and he's the one who be there with me through every single room and things the doctors do. He waited for me, he doesn't sleep all night just to make sure i'm alright cause my mom wasn't there. He got my blood all over his hand. This is one time moment i will never ever forget. Thanks to his friends too for helping me back then.
For a guy who love you and care for you so much although i know we're still young and wild but we do love each other. We've been through hard times since the first few months we were together. It was never a sweet love story like other couple had cause I cried a lot and it is not because of him but the people around us; my mom, his family, our foster family, friends and others. But he never gave up on me. I think I've asked like thousand times for him to let go of me but the answer is no. He hold on to me and said everything will be okay. Sooner or later it will and it did. Everybody started to accept us and decided to give us another chance.
I've been through a lot with him. I put a lot of effort for this relay and so does he. It's unfair for others to judge him because what everybody else see is only from the outside. As like other couples, we do not know what's the future hold but we do pray and hope for the best. How can i not love him? There answer is no, i cant. I love him more than i could ever imagine loving other people than myself. He's rank is way higher than i love food or shopping or sneakers.
I've done this before and i'll do it again. I'll try as hard as i can, build this relay as far it can go, never stop believing and to be thankful all the time cause i'm one of God's slave who get the taste of love in her early young-adult life with a boy/guy who truly care and love her.
Cause loving you is fun. Je t'aime tellement. toujours fait et feront toujours
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