lamanya dah tak update blog..well nak kata sibuk lebih kurang laah, sibuk study, lepak, kemas rumah, keluar, shopping, dating..blablabla and so pagi-pagi buta yang aku tak reti nak tidur tak fikir esok ada class pagi nie laah tergerak hati pulak aku nak update blog yang dah berhabuk berkulat berkuman bagai..
so hows ma life? well alhamdulillah so far i'm enjoying ma life and happy with it for many reason and one of it is because life is too short to waste ma time to be sad. i'm really thankful to Allah SWT. for until now i have my mom and abang to support me in whatever i'm doing and ma decision. guess they started to trust their little girl and let her grow up to be a wise woman. they've been through so much with me and also because of me, and for that i am really bless to have them by my side until now. there's no other beautiful loves compare to our own family. me and my family have been through a rough time where ma mom and ma dad had a divorce by end of last year. i'll be lying if i said that i'm okay with it and not feeling any stress about this. i'm the youngest in da family and i still need ma mom and dad to be with me but this is their decision. although i have the right to object but still, i do need to respect as it is for our own good. i still have my mom and my dad, just what make it diff now is that we're not living together under one roof anymore. i always pray to Allah so both of my parents are under His guide. my responsibility in the family changed since that happen and i'm can no longer the same me like before. may Allah ease everything for me and ma family, amen.
next chapter, alhamdulillah thanks to Allah also He brought a guy name 'S' into ma life and bring happiness to me. lets just call him braces cause he's wearing one. he came into ma life by unnoticeable and i am not aware of his existent until the day we become much closer than just a normal friend. we started to know each other because of our 'ibu' which is our foster mother when she brought us back to her hometown in Perak for a wedding. the last day we're there, that's when we start to know and get closer to each other. he's just a normal boy living in his simple way of life and nothing much that can be brag about him. i love him just the way he is and he accept me for who i am. he keeps on chasing me for quite a long time and never give up to make me fall in love with him. never once he stop. once he said to me and these two lines that i'll be remember until the end of my life.."kenapa aku sayang kau? sebab aku yakin kau akan bahagiakan aku, cuma kau!" and "nak dapatkan kau punya susah, kau ingat senang-senang aku nak lepaskan kau? jangan mimpi sebab takkan terjadi!" these two lines really bring down my ego and open my heart to try and learn to accept him in my life. i know when being in love, everything can seem so beautiful and perfect but not for me. i know my limit and i still have my ego beyond me to keep on reminding me that dont get to deep with this cause it's just started. to be truth, with him i feel a whole lot different as he's not the same like any other guy i've met before. EX-es thought me the feel of being betrayed, liked, hurt and fun in a relay. i don't know why i am so afraid that i will lose him cause since the day we were together i pray he'll be the first and the last one for me. i cant put it into words for how much he mean to me and i couldn't describe him. to me, he's not perfect and that is perfect for me. i dont need a perfect guy for me but all i need is a guy who can perfect me. and i've found him, in sha Allah. there wont be enough space to talk only about him, haha :)
final chapter, i'm bless to have my friends with me especially Chaira ma best friend ma twin ma half life. back in KL where i have the TB's (chaira, bella, nana, yad, ain, ziyad, shaff, ajim, remy, azrul, fitri) i have SANTAI (aty, farrah, aswad, fitri, ely, aliff, izzat, ikram, etc) and the girls in nottingham (meerah, piqa, mim) in my life. they really complete me by just being themselves and also other friends too. without having friends in ma life, i am nothing! so i would appreciate them so much for exist in my life. no words can ever express how thankful i am for having them to support me, be with me when i'm happy or in need, and throughout my teenage life, they are wonderful. but as friends, we do argue and have misunderstanding sometimes. now i'm having kindda bad time with Santai since i've been together with braces. i know for some reasons they dont like me and him being together and i dont blame them but i do hope that they will try and accept for ma relation with him. i dont wanna lose ma friends just because of a guy but they do have to respect ma right. eventhough they've been kindda avoiding me but some of them still care for me and i'm thankful for that. no matter who ever they are, i hope slowly they can accept me and him being together and pray for us to last forever, amen. i'm sorry to some of the TB's because i'm too busy to keep in contact with them. it's my fault and i'm sorry for not being a good friend. to the notts girls, thank you for cheering me up everyday i'm here on campus and never left me alone especially when we're going for a meal. they're the reason i'm getting fatter, haha LOL :D
ma study, me and everything alhamdulillah still in a perfect shape. whatever happened and will be happening in the future, i will face it with Allah's guidance and help. Usaha, Doa and Tawakal :) learn to be strong and keep my ego on balance so i wouldn't easily get hurt or hurt anyone else. i wont give up so easily and i will stay as ego as i am now cause it is hard for me to trust anyone else, believe me i don't. loving ma life now and in sha Allah forever.
#Note To Myself: Don't ever forget where am i from and what have i been thorugh in life. learn from the past, do better in present and for the future. the most important thing is never forget my creator, Allah SWT. He's always ther, just put your hand together, raise it up and du'a :')
Love, Aimi Nadiah.
-NANBA-
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