complicated march.

before anything.."assalamualaikum"
i wanna tell a story bout what's happening in march..
mostly what happen when the first mid term holidays..

first:
i'm feeling like killing myself when my bff gaduh wif her besties..
she doesnt blame me or what..but somehow i know her besties blame me..
and somehow i'm involved dlm that situation..
she text me the same thing she sent to her besties..
btw, me and her besties were besties too..
(it sound so complicated than i imagined)
so then her besties text me and ask something2..then she called me..
her voice sound so cool like she's not even mad or what..
but i know she was cause the words yang keluar dari mulut die like
somehow burn my heart simply in a second..
my bff she said ignore her besties but how..
cause she is also my besties and we've discuss bout our prob together..
then dah gaduh3..me yang kene n jadi mangsa di tengah2..
i cried at bangsar's putra station like gile2 sedih..
why i yang kene n why like she blame me..
blame me cause i rapat wif my bff n blame me cause i'm her besties..
gile bodoh an..opss :O
then someone try to cheer me up but apperently he couldnt..
muahahahaha :P

second:
now i mean dr ble tah..i'm fighting wif my bff "C"..
she's..idk why...but she's damnly marah gile2 B**I kowt to me..
urghh like what the freakishly F*** weyh..
sampai sekarang i didnt know why she's mad at me..
yang i know is that she's freaking marah n bengang wif me..
when i ask what's wrong she x cakap pape pown..
die diam je n not textnig me,call even worst xtegur me at all..
tution; she sanggup tukar her schedule just nak run away from me..
my other friend 'I' said "alah biar jela nanti lame2 okey la"
but i know how stubborn she is, how kerasnya kepalanya macam batu..
so i apolagize to her like gazillion times dah but..
the thing yang i dapat only is *BLANK* :O
i cant live like this lah..
now her besties xtau bout this n she didnt have to know cause i know
if she find out bout this we're..i mean i'm dead cause nnt my bff think..
that i like suke kecoh n tell poeple bout my probs..
the thing is i'm not n i didnt tell but they know like..
it's obviously nmpk cause we're damn rapat before n now..this!!
my lord,why is this happening to me..??
she's my bff n i dont want..really dont wanna lose her..
not now not ever!!
hurmm but what i bleh buat skarang only wait for her..
i'm still hopping..still..

third:
okay like everyone i mean my schoolmate know bout what happen to me n 'A'
we were like gile rapat then suddenly we're appart..
all of my friends think that i dump him like for suke2..
the truth is i'm not..
i have my own good reason why i did "dump" him..
mybe for anyone else the reason nmpk mcm xlogic at all..
but if u put urself in my shoes u'll know how hard it is for me..
but march comes; so now i'm trying to get together wif him back..
i know it sound silly n stupid..but..
i need to do this like for my sake,his n our relationship even as a friend..
so i text him starting wif:

me: 'A'
him: hai..igt dh lupa dah..

then it continue like blahblahblah..
so 30 march in the evening..he called me like for the first time sejak
persitiwa pahit..yang berlaku few months i mean a year ago..
we talked like nothing happen..
he even topup his phone..haha feel really appriciated kowt.. :P
he's a sweet n nice guy..so it's not like forbiden or what kn..
trying to get his heart back..it might be hard but i know i can..
hahahaha dah macam fairy tales dulu kala :D
he started to text "gud nite" again to me..ngee

fourth:
i feel damn;y stupid!!
like not just about boys but bout:
1: my bff
2: my friends
3: mr.'A'
4: my bf
5: my family
6: my study
argghhh gosh like xboleh nak banyak masalah lagi??
me feel like wanna jump from a brigde jatuh kene lenyek dengan kereta..
teenagers!!
life is hard..n it get harder as u grow up..

dah la..
i feel like terribly shit right now..
tomorrow ade class photoshoot..i hope we'll be GEMPAK..
fly high like a 5u 2011..ngee