Cant Stop Crying..

i bet anyone dah pernah cry for someone they love the most..tak kisah lah if the person is your boyfriend or best friend or even your family ke..or it might be jugak someone who you just met few hours ago tepi jalan..for me..i cried for my best friend last night..she might not understand why but..i do felt something wrong with me..ermmm something like i'm gonna leave her alone..forever..

(btw this post has no pictures..no merepek-repek) -_-"

last night i cry for her macam orang gila je dalam bilik..i dont know why suddenly masa nak tidur i felt like my heart pound kuat gila..then i've spoke her name..and the second her name appear..my tears pun jatuh meleh macam air terjun..eh, thi isn't funny at all okay..but seriously i do felt something wrong but aku tahan..lama gila aku tahan and nagis sorang2 in the dark..then bila dah tak tahan sangat..i called her..nasib baik she's not asleep yet masa tuh..kalau tak..my tears nie agaknya..meleleh sampai keluar air mata darah lah kowt :'(

here's a bit of our conversation..

chaira : "weyh, kau okay tak nieh? jangan buat aku risau dowh."

aimi :    "aku okay lah. just wanna hear your voice then aku tidur okay."

chaira:  "aimi, kau kenapa. tell me dear. kenapa suddenly menangis nie?"

aimi:     "nothing lah. jangan risau kay."

chaira:  "i'm here for you dear. i wont be going anywhere okay"

aimi:     "okay (fake smile)"

when we talk on the phone last night i still tak tahu kenapa my tears nie tak nak stop falling..apa tears nie ingat aku nie banyak sangat tenaga nak nangis-nangis..haishhh erm anyway bila dah dapat talk to her i feel a little bit safe..eh sikit je ek..but then someone called and we're on the phone for a while (TOBY)..talking to him memang i do menagku i just wanna cheer myself up but..it's no use..sebab..suddenly my brother came in (dalam bilik) then he asked me "kenapa tak tidur lagi"..so dia suruh aku tidur..

macam tau-tau je adik dia nieh kaki penipu so he masuk balik into my room then..he took my phone, switched the phone murah off..he took my mom's phone (which with me that time) he simpan..and then he bawak masuk his laptop and everything masuk..just to ensure that i'll be sleeping jugak!..haishh susah ada big bro nieh :)

but then i cry lagi sekali..haishh apa masalah lagi lah aku nie..my brother was there to comfort me..so he try to talk to me..and then we borak-borak..suddenly he asked this..

abang: "eh,balik tadi i smell guys at you."

aimi:    "eh mana ada. abang salah bau kowt.. apa ingat adik nieh busuk sangat macam lelaki?"

abang: "ye lah mana tau tadi keluar with guys kan (he makes funny face)"

aimi:    "owh, member-member ada lah. eleh bukan wangi pun. dont worry kayh."

dalam banyak-banyak benda we melalut last night..this is the only part yang fresh in my mind sekarang :) SORRY TOBY he's the one yang bangi that kind of bau to me..so blame him okay..haha..

okay back to the topic..i've been staying up the whole night..eh jap..tak ada lah the whole night..just from 11 till 3.00..then fall asleep kejap..then terjaga and cry lagi from 4.00 till 6.30..penat memang lah..siapa tak penat menangis..but now aku dah okay..i'll be fine for now..my brother whom also BURUNG HANTU dalam rumah nieh was the one who stay and comfort me..

p/s: Lucky to have him as my brother. Abang orang lain langsung tak sayang adik. Lagi-lagi adik perempuan. :) thanx abang..

okay here's some word for chaira..

chaira,

the moment i felt like i'm going somewhere far..the first person link into my mind is YOU..

the moment i felt like dying and crying..i just wanna be with YOU..

it's hard to find someone who really appreciate me like YOU..

it's hard to find someone who's as crazy and comfy like me like YOU..

i'm sorry for all the hurts i've made in YOUR heart..

i'm sorry for all the mistakes that i haven't notice it's hurting YOU..

hehehehe ada macam ayat lover tak? but truly i'm not LESBIAN or what..but i do love my twin and my not-so-big sister nieh..she'd asked me once "eh, macam mana lah aku nak hidup tanpa kau"..that's her problem..hehe but mine was "macam mana aku nak hidup tak ada kau!"..i'm scared of losing her..losing her as if half of my body's dead :'(

-NANBA-